I ended up failing at fasting today, however, I am going to fast for sure tomorrow, and not watch any TV for the entire day. I had a bad day today, I got a call from a different temporary service, and it sounded like i may have a long term job on a busline starting next Monday, and I was told they would let me know this afternoon, however, they never called back, so I do not know what is going on. I also could have worked a few more days at the part time temp job, but it is too late now, and I am not scheduled until Tuesday evening. I feel good about not having use of my moms car this weekend, it is at her house, and I have not talked to her or my brother since I dropped off the car yesterday, I need a complete break from talking to them. They know I will not be over there tomorrow. Some people at a former church said they can give me $50, but I do not know if I will take that. I honestly feel like God has abandoned me and like giving up. Pray I'll stop being in deep gloom and despair